sadness of october

hey again .
updating blog again to cry my heart out
what a day :']
i shouldnt be crying .
but not today .
i got my parents . and friends next to me ~
why should i be sad for you?
if you love me,then you will never hurt me no matter what i did.
its a nice advise i receive .
well, after all this, it should teach me to be stronger :']
i cant just stay around and get hurt so deeply that i cant even stand anymore
im a human , a normal girl that wish to have hapiness.
dont make me regret knowing you :]

well this is me . crying last night for what u said :']
well it hurts ~ and youre tearing me into pieces .
HAPPY?
well, this is the 1st time i take photos when im crying in my room.
and whats more is that i never cry this much this year !

hey enough is enough !
i dont want to hurt myself again!
I WOKE UP from my STUPID DREAM aready
all these are facts and i accepted it
i can be more happier than i was before


well, dont tell me about PROMISES
all are lies !
FUCK it
i HATE that bullshit
even FOREVER!
those are white lies


hey.. wake up liao lah
dont be so childish
dont make me hate you
when i talk my things you juz owh and change topic!
and when u talk your things i always speak long and continue wif ur topic


im not flower ...
im just looking for mr RIGHT

hey .. who wont feel lonely when waiting for so long?
you know or not? i always pretend im alright woth you ?
i dint even complain
my heart get stolen easily when im hurt !
i thought you had DC me
well, enough is enough

i dint expect you would say that to me
THANKS very much :] ~
i appreaciate it

from now, im going to smile :]
smile like i used too


thanks for the accompany and advises
the most i want to thank is listening to me
thanks very much WEN XUAN & Desmond Lee

my words from my heart

hey hey :D
long time no update blogger jor :X
kinda lazy to type long stories cause of my mood
well, intro will be my photo taken before my pmr exam
well these makeups covered off my swollen eyes after i cried :X
haha with the edit, my face dont look red anymore.
the contact lens help my eyes look better :'D

well well,
its over with exam
now is working time :D
went to interview yesterday :X
hope i can work by tomorow
hahas ... well,hope working can fill my boredness.
even working long hours,
i dont mind as long as i got distracted by my feelings

been sad for a few weeks
well feelings really hurts
oh well... i treating myself single
but the truth is i wish to be single and know him more
:'[

well, what i like abt him:
he's good
he;s funny
he's cute
he's fashionable
he's understanding
he's stubborn :33
he's lazy :33
he's on time for something
he cares on what i said
but sadly..our relationship was only like siblings.

i do wish to get closer to you.
but i scared youre ignore me
actually, i added youcox i admired your pictures
when you first find me chat , i was more happy than anything.
but it was a group chatting...
well, after that,i added you.
then chat for a while then stoped :'(

well, maybe ive forgoten you lately .
when i viewed your profile,it hurts ..
i was jealous to see so many girls around you :(
well,its your life..
i just can stand and watch
well, im giving to much hint to let you know that its you now
but the problem is...will u ever view my blog?? :'(

but im happy i got a chance to chat with you in FB
butsince ure working le , its kinda hard..
but i will wait u even do it makes me tired the next day :']
heyyy... can u pleae pay attention or not?
i like you :']
no no ... i love you :']
thx for coming in my life...
i really appreaciate it even do ur not my BF
~ cause it was my wish since the day i added you :')
please know that im writing about you .
but plss... if ur rejecting, pls ignore this and pretend its not you :']
noe i wanna ask you.............
do you love me? :']

i miss you so much .wish we were closer that what we are now :']
i stop here now :']
its dedicated to you ..
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